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At this moment in my life, i have so many thoughts going through my mind. The feeling of thinking to much about the things in my mind. I honestly need some kinda person to talk to who can actually help me sort out my problems and the things in my mind. I hate the fact i think to much. :\
Happy Fathers day to a wonderful father, who is dearly missed and will always be remember. Life without you has been so hard, but i know that you are around anywhere i look. I miss you dad, and i know you are doing just fine where you are at. I love you always.
A year has unfolded since i last posted. Well 11 months ago, but on June 27 2011 it will be a year. =] The boyy has changed my life for the good. We have had our struggles, we have hit a down fall, but in the end look were we are now. Happy. =]I don’t think i could go a day without him around me making smart comments, i don’t know what i would do if i didn’t have him to wake up next to in the mornings. He is simply my everything, the one person i know i can always count on when i need him most. There may be some things that need to change, but this boy here, he is amazing. In every little or big way possible. <3 Chris Albert Laflamme you have my heart kid. =]
![My boyfriend. I call him [[Thumperrr]] =] He has my heart. And has had it for 4 years. =] He is simply beautiful, and amazing in every way possible. I love you.](http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_l4r7rkjcxH1qbev5zo1_250.jpg)
My boyfriend. I call him [[Thumperrr]] =] He has my heart. And has had it for 4 years. =] He is simply beautiful, and amazing in every way possible. I love you.
He is simply perfect. Spending a week with him changed my world. He completely made my heart melt. Now we are in this whole love thing together. =] I believe it is going to work. Finally, after 4 years… =]
I have come to the thought process where i can say this:
I have ten more days till Graduation! Woot!!
Super excited!
My mom is still flipping out over the same shit…
OH when will this ever calm dowwnnnnn
Dear heart,
I have spent years trying to find you a place where you simply belong. I have done a horrible job twice all ready. The first place decided to break your promises, and give you so much hope it hurt. Also, the first place decided to take you for a hear breaking trip that you can’t seem to return from. I know how much you miss that first place… But sadly heart.. That first place clearly doesn’t miss you at all. I am so sorry.
Dear heart,
The secound place i decided to take you too. Made you fall so fast it was hard to tell where you were going some days. This place made you open up and close at the same time because i knew how scared you were. This place, hurt you also… Told you not to be so close like you used to be… And that this place just made you pack up and try to be something different then what you truly were. I know you tryied and blamed yourself for everything… I am so sorry i hurt you this way by taking you through these places where you didnt understand what was happening.
Dear heart,
Some day i promise you… You will be happy.
My life is completely unfolding into something i can’t understand. It’s either fights with everyone in the family about graduation, or me hating my sister more and more everyday.. Or it’s the past trying to open a door in my life again and i sadly have no where to run too. All the escapes i had… are gone.. =/ Chris decides to end whatever we had and i never felt so lost…. it hurts seeing how much more everyday that he doesn’t care. Then you have the whole pain hitting through every center of your body that you have been trying to avoid… Oh, dear… What to do in my life…
I need to hurry up with the Graduation thing which will take away the most stress in my life… I need some peace.
